The Red Table Talk

I don't know who added me to the Red Table Talk group on Facebook, but I wish I did. So that I can THANK them. For letting me view what I personally consider to be some of the pettiest bullshit ever. And yes I do realize that people are entitled to their own opinions. 

But GOD DAMN. Some of the shit people say in this group is just. plain. stupid AF.

So let's discuss mental health for a minute. Or two, or five. 

Someone on this group asked if other people would be willing to date someone who had "mental health issues." And much to my surprise (just kidding) most people stated that they would absolutely not date someone who had these issues. Well lemme tell you somethin'. WE ALL GOT PROBS, BOB. Jesus fucking Christ, how in the hell are people such as myself supposed to find a potential mate? Now mind you this group is 95% women, who think that crazy belongs with crazy. But I imagine a healthy amount of men believe and state rather proudly that they would never date a "crazy" girl. I'm pretty sure that nowhere (or nowhere that I am aware of) does there say in any mental health provider's text, that there is such a thing as CRAZY. We're all a little messed up in the head. I'm out and proud about being a mildly depressed, counselor attending, slightly off her rocker kind of girl. But that doesn't mean ANYTHING about my future as a potential life mate. I survived one of the worst domestic situations ever. And no I'm not okay. And no I didn't just suck it up like I was kindly advised to by people close to me. But you know what? I'm over the most of it. Yes it destroyed my self esteem, my self worth, MYSELF in general. But every day that I wake up, I'm that much better. And I spent a very long time alone in my marriage, and alone on my own. And you know what? I'm my own person. I'm still definitely working on self esteem and self image, but those things don't go away overnight. I fancy myself a relatively fabulous human being most days. And some days I feel like crap about the world. And if you tell me that you NEVER feel like that, YOU ARE A LIAR.

Let's talk something else about mental health. Medication.

One of the most hilarious comments I read in this thread was that a person (well more than one) believed that anyone, and I mean ANYONE who takes prescription medication(s) for their "mental health" issues, hides their medications. Maybe because you're a judgmental asshole?!?!? A person hiding anything doesn't necessarily hide something in shame. And some do. But that's their choice. I take a very small dose of antidepressants to take the edge off. During 2.5 years of treacherous divorce (yes it took that long), I needed something. And I still take it. Because it takes the edge off. I don't hide it. That shit is on the kitchen table. There is nothing for me to be ashamed of, and I'm not. Dear God I'm sure someone is out there that has on their Oh No No list (thanks Tom Haverford) that a potential life partner absolutely cannot take allergy meds. Or vitamins. Or Kool-Aid. 

I'm not a smoker. Don't do recreational drugs, however yes, I am pro-marijuana. Not for me to use it, but for economy and revenue. There are so many worse things I could be into. Like Barbies. (BARF)

I hope that the next person who looks for me, looks for ME. I'm not just someone's ex-wife. I'm not just a big girl who used to not be. Whose body isn't the prettiest when it isn't covered. I'm just me. 

An out and proud member of a group of people who deserve to be taken seriously and supported in my endeavors to better myself. Whether it's depression, bipolar disorder, PTSD, schizophrenia, anxiety/panic disorder, or whatever. We deserve way better than those people. We don't need someone to own our problems. They're definitely ours. 

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